Studies in Metaphysical Dreams-4(Final)
Dr K.Loganathan 2005
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The Metaphysics of Waters and Fish
The theme of waters and fish is quite common in practically all religions. In VaishNavism this theme is quite central where VishNu is said to repose on a bed formed by the Huge Snake and in an ocean of Clean Waters. VishNu is said to take the Avatar of Fish over and above many others. I have had many dreams on both waters and fish and where they seem to be related to human sexuality and fertility. The fish comes quite often something I eat after cooking it well and which seems to mean that I enjoy some kind of sexual joys. The waters almost always means recovery rejuvenation etc. I recall here the dreams my mother used to have . My mother never believed in clinical medicine, no matter how sick she was bearing it all silently praying to God for divine help, She lived to the ripe old age of 83 without ever taking any pills. Each time she fell sick, she would also have a dream of swimming happily in a pool she used to swim as a child back in an Indian village where she was born and grew up. Then I would tell her that she will recover quite well soon and which in fact came true after a few days time. Even during my recent ailments I was blessed with deep sleep over the Huge Snake where the ocean changed from that of clean Blue Waters to black and finally that of Milk and diamond. And sure enough at the end of such a series of dreams I recovered substantially where my powers to think deep and write were restored (among others )_
Now the dream about to describe here also has waters and fish but with a twist to the meaning of Fish quite different from the above and because of it caught my attention and made me think deeply about it.
The Dream
a.
There is a reasonably large and broad river on the banks of which I stand watching the fun. The river is full of gently flowing waters, reasonably deep and where near the banks people , male female and children happily swim about splashing the waters on each other and so forth. However right in front of me there is a pregnant naked woman and enjoying swimming close to the banks. Unknown to her there is a gruesome shark-like fish circling about her ready to attack her and kill. Frightened I await that fateful moment. However as if by magic just at that point the whole river dries up making the river bed quite visible and dry. Then I notice that this shark-like fish lies there dead and the woman now on the banks. I also notice another black and snake-like fish in the middle of the ricer dying but wriggling to survive
b.
Then I notice that people are not disappointed and put off- they now venture in the whole of the dry river bed exploring quite happily every part of it. In some places there appears to be ridges and they build steps to climb them up. They go to the very end over the other side and return to the shores
The Meaning:
The presence of the pregnant women enjoying a swim in the waters, appears to be quite clear in meaning. The waters favor fertility rejuvenation etc and may be related to the ancient theme that life as such began in the waters, a meaning of the FISH Avatar of Vishnu. A young woman’s body is full of waters and which dries up as she grows old and become incapable of pregnancies and giving birth to children. The presence of waters in her body gives her a special sexually alluring beauty called Vanappu in Tamil and invites the male seeking her out and have sex with her . But to become pregnant this alone is not sufficient- her body condition must be COOL for the sperms to survive reach the ovum and fertilize it. Perhaps this is all part of the presence of cool waters in the body and which theme is celebrated also as the Heavenly Ganges on the tuft of Siva. This is one of the tools He has to manage the creatures.
However the shark-like fish here is not the normal fish with which the life perhaps began. It stands here for an EVIL Force, a force of a kind that would attack and kill a pregnant women. Thus it is an Asura lurking in the fertility-providing waters and which would seek to PREVENT women getting pregnant and multiply and populate the earth with more of their own species. Thus it appears that the fertile waters also carry along with them evil powers that would prevent pregnancies as such.
Thus it may be possible that while a young woman can have sex and so forth, she may remain barren and infertile because of the action of fish-asuras as such
That the river dries up precisely just before the attack indicates divine intervention and where the desiccation of the river (attributed to Siva in Indian mythologies, Siva the Fire ) materilaizes. Absence of the waters effectively kills this fish-asura thus saving the women and making her continue to grow the fetus and later deliver a child. That a black fish in the middle of the river also dies indicates that there are other such asura forces that may prevent the enjoyment of the pleasures associated with human fertility
Now it is also interesting that the people are not put off with the dry river and that in fact they begin to EXPLORE and enjoy such dry river-beds. It looks as though people enjoy both the fertility-driven way of life as well as the ascetic, the barren and infertile existential ecologies.
Concluding Remarks
This dream makes it clear that human beings are DUAL in relation to sexuality. While they enjoy sexual life and the processes that bring about species regeneration but in view of the evils that are there in such a way of life , also enjoy the ascetic, existence in barren and dry desert-like ecologies. In the life of many these two states quite often alternate ( as is the case with me) and where during the ascetic phase the evil powers already there are effectively killed. In Hindu mythologies these notions are related to VishNu , the Lord who sleeps over the Waters and Siva who dances the Dance of Fire and causes the burning of all. BEING who is ABOVE such icons seems to take these alternative forms to make people thrive and populate the earth with more and more with creatures of their own species. Perhaps the evolutionary processes already there in the world are to be seen finally as the Dance of BEING who takes the forms of Siva and VishNu to promote the multiplication of life as such
We can also see here the seeds of a mythology or Purana and which may show that perhaps all the mythologies ultimately are DREAMS of a kind that I call metaphysical dreams.
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The Metaphysics of Blue Siva , Black Lingkam and Black Tirumaal
As I recover my health where for sure I can see the return of former and youthful vigor, the nature of metaphysical dreams that are prophetic on this matter also change in many interesting ways. One thing I notice is that BEING does not discriminate between icons - freely presenting all kinds of icons without any preferences. What determine the nature of the icons disclosed in the metaphysical dreams is the PROCESSES in the depths and nothing else . It is also the case , it would seem that the SAME deep meanings can be communicated in MANY iconic presentations perhaps each having its own focus. The iconic rivalries are human and not divine at all.
The Two Blacks
Now I must also mention the unfortunate situation in relation to the color Black in metaphysical dreams in view of the sensitivity and all because of reducing the metaphysical into physical and hence to racial,. Tirumaal is Black and this black is that of Anjcana Amutu, the most potent ambrosia that is instrumental in the recovery of youthful vitality (about which I shall weite in greater detail later),. This is also the color of the LiGkam, and which has never appeared in my dream other than in this color. Now the other Black called Malam ( the Dark Stuff) is the Killer Black, the color of ghosts , devils and so forth and which are harbingers of DEATH and death-bringing diseases chronic mental depressions and so forth.
Now in the dreams I am about to relate, the Black is the Majestic Black - that which brings about the recover of good health and youthful vitality and hence the source of longevity and so forth
The Blue Siva and Black LiGkam
As I recover my health I sit as Blue Siva in a Padmasana posture beneath a Banyan Tree with folded legs crisscrossed but with hands resting on the legs . The whole body is beautiful BLUE, almost black with a huge diamond Trident standing very tall just behind and on which the hand-drum, the Udukkai, beats incessantly . Now on the laps are apsaras or sakties , sometimes two , sometime four and sometimes even six where they stand by the left and right sides, evenly distributed..
Siva appears with His usual adornments: Golden Snakes on the neck and arms, Crescent Moon and Ganges on the tuft etc.
Such a dream image is quite old and each time I get exhausted , this icon would appear and from which I would understand that my exhaustion will be over soon . However lately there was a twist to this. As I lower my left leg and let it stand on the floor, it would become a massive and immensely strong Black LiGkam with sometimes four and sometimes six yonies, bases with grooves running through to the edge. Then there would come apsaras again four or six and wrap themselves around this LiGkam and shining bright like a diamond
The Black LiGkam with the Sun-Moon
Now again there was a new development. After sometime the whole of the figure of Siva would disappear and at which point the SivaliGkam alone would swell immensely and grow tall as if reaching out to touch the sky. Again the base is four or six yonies. Then right at the top, a sun-moon complex would burst out with infinite strength and send out rays of light as if to reach out the whole world.
The Aticedan and Tirumaal
Now along with these icons and as if communicating the same meaning in another form is another icon where I would stand on the base provided by a thousand-headed and diamond Aticedan who would coil up to provide the platform on which to stand. Again I would stand as the Balck Tirumaal with four and six apsaras evenly distributed on both my sides.
The Meanings:
The meaning of the Blue Siva and Black Tirumaal is clear (also from other instances). It is I who now enjoys a strong healthy body with Ambrosia filling every part of it so that the processes that bring about body decay and usher in senility and death are arrested and reversed . The body is kept COOL and actively self-regenerative so that the biological processes that bring about body desiccation and hence exhaustion and body parts shriveling and so forth are arrested and reversed. The Fire that burns and brings about senility and death are quenched and removed by this Black Ambrosia and because of which the body remains quite youthful
Now along with this youthful frame we have many different forms of KuNdalini powers helping the individual who is blessed with such a body. The snake stands for the sexual libido, the Crescent Moon another form of ambrosia perhaps related to the production of seminal fluid and hence fertility and the Ganges, the agent of body purification, that which removes the various kinds poisonous deposits of the biological processes and hence perhaps the healthy functioning of the kidneys and so forth
The Trident with the hand-drum beating furiously quite obviously means my ability to write metaphysical essays that is so meaningful to me and which provides the primary meaning for my existence now. The writings I do in the form of essays and metaphysical poetry (in Tamil) are actually beating the hand-drum and all because the Psychic Energy as signified by the Trident and provided by the KuNdalini Sakties of various kinds already available in the body.
Now the LiGkam with four or six yonies standing tall and huge is also related to this. Such a SivaliGkam represents the production of an immense quantity of psychic energy released when the Bindu is pierced by the Natam, a metaphysical process akin to the sexual act. The energy thus released is also transmuted into the Sun-Moon complex and which are deep metaphysical illuminations . It appears to me that the various metaphysical essays I write are in fact facilitated , quite unknown to me, by this kind energy transformations.
Now something the same in meaning appears to be that of Tirumaal with Aticedan. The Aticedan symbolizes the immense KuNdalini Sakti and which was the one of the shapes the Sumerian In-Anna took and as the daughter of Suen, the Moon God. It is also the form of deity the ancinet Nubians worshipped in prefercne to all others. Here we have the In-anna as the four or six Sakties and who may generate the foundational KuNdalini Sakti as pictured by the Aticedan. It is the immense energy that forms the BASIS for myself to enjoy the body of Tirumaal and hence live well with all the abilities unimpaired.
Concluding Remarks
The icons are clearly mantra-figures which take possession of my soul and body and Siva Tirumaal and so forth are the Deep Structures of my own self and which determine how I live, what kind body I will have and what kind activities I will indulge in. In other words they SHAPE my existence and quite unknown to me but which become something I understand only because of such metaphysical dreams.
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The Metaphysics of Metaphysical Texts and Brain Processes
I have many dreams in which I visit a bookshop, ramshackle the book shelves and choose some books mostly ancient and purchase them. I thought actually they were prophetic about my visits to bookshops and purchasing some books , a habit I still have. However lately I had a similar dream with a twist which disclosed to me that the meaning of such dreams is quite different and though they were prophetic but actually explorations of deeper parts of the brain. It disclosed to me something deeper about the origin of metaphysical texts and how to understand the ancient art, architecture dance music and so forth.
One peculiar feature of ancient art is that they are mostly non-natural and even when naturalistic they had meanings quite different from that of botanists and biologists. Thus we have the natural fish crocodile lion tiger elephant buffalo and so forth but which are representations of metaphysical forces rather than the natural. This is quite obvious in the case of bizarre creatures like the centaurs unicorns sphinx and so forth. We have also polycephalic figures like that of Kantan, Cataciva and so forth and hybrid figures like Ganesha Narasimha and so forth. We have also dance dramas like Kathakali where bizarre attire and face make-up are emphasized. In the ancient art as also in Africa Polynesia and elsewhere we have an abundance of facial art as well as masks that are worn to represent some underground forces.
I believe that all these are different kinds of expressions of some metaphysical texts and which are READ as the soul travels in the brain and accesses certain parts there and where they encounter such texts. This is also true of world scriptures and especially the Sacred Tamil where they are in fact Moksa literature and which erupt into language when the soul reaches the bottommost layers of the brain,
With this preliminary let me describe the dream that I had just a few days ago and perhaps because of my indulgence in Sacred Tamil
The dream
I visit a huge book store with several stories. I am in one of the top floors and while looking at several books, there are two sakties who bring to my attention two books one very old and another very large and attached to it. Fascinated I flip the pages and note that the old looking book is really a very ancient book and something about ancient cosmology. The other book, though large does not interest me . When I ask the sakties where they got them, they say that they were in the bottommost floor, the underground.
Now when I move over to the counter to pay the price for it and make it my own I am surprised to encounter two figures - one man and another a woman, quite fair and golden in color. When they see the book they are puzzled and when I tell them it is from the underground chamber then they say they have to contact the people there and confirm the price. They did precisely that and I paid the price and made that book my own
The Meaning:
The most fascinating thing about this book is that it is from the underground and which signifies to me my own unconscious, not the repressed and suppressed but rather the hidden and concealed, the MaRaip PoruL as it is said in Tamil. It is not me who discovers it but rather some female Sakties and which are divine forces and who bring them to my attention. Assuming that the unconscious is a deeper part of my brain, that part which I have not accessed yet, it appears that there are celestial forces who would labor to bring to my consciousness the existence of such information deep within my brain itself.
It also appears to me that I cannot possess it and make it my own unless the purchasing is allowed by another pair of divine forces here a man and woman, fair and golden. This perhaps shows that the information contained in the book is not for everybody but only for those who can be blessed with a golden body, the dream of the ancient pharaohs. The books must contain some kind of metaphysical understanding that would purify the soul and body and make them shine as golden.
The Genesis of Such Dreams
When I look into the genesis of such dreams, it appears to me that first of all my soul is made to travel from the groin area in which it reposes during the Cuzutti type of deep sleep and made to be present in the brain part . Then BEING perhaps uses a software to enact a drama by manipulating the neurons and so forth and which is INTERPRETED or TRANSLATED into the visual images and auditory language and experienced as the dream. There must be another kind of software which allows this translation and which at another level gets espressed as the ancient art and so forth
The dream in fact hints at that I am about to access a deeper part of the brain where deep metaphysical information is available and that such an understanding will become part of myself and all because I am blessed by a variety of divine forces guarding them all.
Brain Processes and Reorganization of the Body Processes
Now against the background of my recent ailment where chronic diabetes hit me and I came very close to death, and quite miraculously I escaped this untimely death, this dream has another importance. Such deep metaphysical wisdom is something guarded by the divine forces and is made available only to some who in the eyes of BEING deserve it. For they have the effect of transforming the body into GOLD and which means a strong body quite immune to senility and the diseases that accompanies it. A golden body is like a diamond body , something that resists the onset of senility and body decline and recovers a youthful frame where the person can continue to live a happy life and remain quite youthful for many years to come.
Thus it appears to me that such metaphysical information made available by the soul reaching some deeper layers of the brain, also ushers in changes in the biological processes in the body whereby not only the body is strengthened but also the youthful vigor recovered.
I feel the truth of such changes in my body and though the recovery is not complete yet but I can feel that I am well on the way towards complete recovery. It appears that genuine metaphysical excursions are the kind of brain processes which in fact can re-organize the entire biological processes that would recover the youthful vitality and retain it for many years to come.
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The Metaphysics of the Black Goddess
Let me recall that the Black of Tirumaal, the Se-ir-ma-al of the Sumerians is Anjcana Amutu, the Black Ambrosia and which is the very body of Tirumaal instrumental in sustaining life. When I was near death, it was the recovery of Aticedan through the blessings of Parasakti and reposing on the bed formed by it in the shape of Tirumaal that allowed me to recover from possible death. For the last two months or so I have been enjoying several hours of deep sleep, the Cuzutti which is instrumental in replenishing me with ENERGY, both psychic and bodily which enabled me to be reasonably active again and recover at least partially my youthful vitality.
However lately as I continue to recover my health, a new series of metaphysical dreams began to appears where while I am still with the deep sleep of Tirumaal , I also seem to be blessed by the Black Goddess that the Saivites identify with Uma and call her the Anjanameeni Arivai, the Black Goddess. Punitavati (c 5th cent AD) also notes in her ARputat Tiruvantati that this Black Goddess occupies the same left part of Siva sharing it black Tirumaal.
I am still struggling to understand the metaphysical meaning and which seems to be related to various kinds of joys in life, the aesthetical that affects the heart.
The Metaphysical Dreams
These dreams are of the lucid type, the visions of the Third Eye and occurred while awake and in a meditative mood.
There is a huge Black Lotus appearing and on which sits this Black Goddess with four arms. The front two holds firmly a black pot with gold stripes and the other two hands remain raised. The Black pot remains covered with a black piece and which breaks open and pours out diamonds. Then the whole black cover disappears and the pot virtually pours out the diamonds like a flood.
Now from the raised other two hands also pours out diamonds like a stream. And surprising me immensely there is also such diamond streams both from the mouth and eyes.
Now all these diamonds enter my body and appear to cure various defects still there. The heart has a black strip at the bottom and as these diamonds enter it, this strip disappears and the whole heart shines like a lotus, beautifully red in color. Then it becomes a diamond and swelling in size shines radiantly. The heart becomes fully cured as a result of which blood supply is restored to the extreme tips of my body like the feet , the phallus, the fingers and eyes and as a result of which I recover a youthful frame quite often portrayed as the young Black KaNNan
This is also accompanied by several sakties who appear and pour out the Black Ambrosia from a large range of pots for me to drink and as result of which I again emerge the very youthful Black KaNNan(Krishna)
The Meanings
While the Black Ambrosia that is facilitated by making my soul become the Black Tirumaal has certainly something to do with re-establishing the basic breathing processes and with that re-energize my body, the various kinds of blessings of the Black Goddess appear to be various kinds of powers related to facilitating an active and productive life and which also becomes something joyous,
The flood of diamonds coming from the pot and several female sakties pouring from pots the black ambrosia for me to drink seem to be related to feeding me with sexual libido perhaps through sexual dreams and so forth. We cannot also rule out sexual pleasures through a female perhaps through another marriage.
Now the diamonds pouring out from the palms probably means service from some females like the ones I enjoy at the moment from an Indonesian maid who surprises me from her devotion to serve me well and with understanding. The diamonds from the mouth may be related to speech - either my own or that of others so that it is on the whole joy producing pleasant and peoductive of bliss. The diamonds from the eyes must be related to SEEING and it may be possible that my own vision or that of how others look at me become also joyous. I perhaps end up seeing only the aesthetically appealing and because of which through SEEING I also enjoy various kinds of pleasures.
Now it appears that all these diamonds of pleasures also serve as MEDICINE to cure me further and enable me to recover even more. What is interesting is that it is the HEART that is cured further and which indicates that these blessings of the Black Goddess are FEELING related or aesthetical so that my heart becomes something joyous, free of mental depressions worries and so forth.
It appears the blessings of the Black Goddess are in fact aesthetical , making it possible the enjoyment of various kinds of JOYS and which have good effects on my heart.
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The Metaphysics of the Purdah Woman of Islam and the Black Goddess
One of the things I am learning as I keep a faithful record of these metaphysical dreams is that BEING who is the architect of these deep dreams does not show any favor with respect to the various icons which only the human beings isolate and create various kinds of cults. Now some dreams such as the one I am reporting now seem to go across religions even diametrically opposed to each other such as Tantrism and Islam and which really surprises me. The subjects of these dreams are typical Hindu girls in their twenties and all about to get married. It appears that there are various dramas in their life where they are preparedly mentally to lead a family life on immense strength and where no matter what, separation divorce and so forth become practically unthinkable not only in the mind of the woman but also the man. These dreams also indicate to me the seeds of polygamous family life something that is central to Islam to this day and certainly the only religion that officially upholds it. Tantrism which initially allowed for it (and also polyandry) has fallen now perhaps because of the influence of Christianity where monogamy has become the official model and which in traditional India was only one of the models promoted and perhaps as the ideal but without denying other possibilities.
The Dreams
These dreams are about several of my subjects- some university students now working and some others just ordinary girls working in the factories and so forth. All of them are in love but have met many obstacles in getting married to the man they love and which seems to be various kinds of tests BEING enacts for deepening their love. One of the things that is quite obvious is that the girls, one is particular, meet crises after crises where while initially they resorted to the assistance of parents siblings and friends and only occasionally their lover, but as the crises mounted and kept on coming one after another, they became dependent solely on their lover. Interestingly their lovers also went to great sacrifices to help them, borrowing money even to rescue them out. This had a tremendous effect on the psychology of the ladies and which appeared as metaphysical dreams to me.
Dream 1
Initially she was clad in the typical Purdah dress favored by Islam, though she is Hindu and moves around in ordinary dress like her friends wearing the typical Punjabi dress , western dress and so forth and saris on special occasions. This image is an image of her soul disclosing that she is becoming very faithful only to her lover and which feelings deepened as the crises continued and he continued to bail her out. Then as her love deepened, even the two slits for the eyes disappeared and became covered up. Then occasionally she would remove her face Purdah and expose her beautiful and fair face. However as her love deepened, even the face became black and she started wearing black gloves and inner garments up to her neck and all black. Thus eventually she became all black in body and attire and with no eye-holes at all,
Dream 2.
Then as she developed this kind of inner attire, she became transformed into a Black Moon with red lips and eyes recorded there. It was also disclosed to me what kind of Yantras begin to rule her mind ( and which can be tested in the New Baum Test of Agamic Psychology)
Initially the Yantra has a trunk like the cross-section of a concave lens with the top like the dome of a mosque only that the dents were three or four. They look also like Lotus Petals. Gradually these petals become almost the same as the dome of a mosque or the Kalasam of the Hindu temple. Then it becomes a full circle swallowing the two concave lines. Then finally it becomes just a Moon, Black in color.
Dream 3.
As if explaining the metaphysical processes underlying these changes , there were another series of dreams in which it was shown that as crises after crises mounted she lost her independence gradually and became totally dependent on her lover for help and guidance. The Pillar and Trisuulam shaped Natam disappeared from her soul leaving behind only the Bindu so that by the time she became the Black Moon, she had only the Bindu and not at all the Natam .
Dream 4.
Then something strange happened - she became the Black Goddess, the Anjcana Meeni Arivai, one of the forms Uma assumes. She sits on a Black and massive lotus with four arms and letting a flow diamonds from the pot, hands lips and eyes and about which I have already written. Please see:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/agamicpsychology/message/6774
The Meanings
From the dream themselves the meanings are quite clear. There are underground and divine processes which by enacting various kinds of dramas in the life of individuals , shape the man and woman so that when they get married they lead a life remaining stuck to each other for life and without ever thinking of separation divorce and so forth. We can see that the woman is made solely dependent on her lover and where in that process she is weaned away from her parents and siblings so that psychologicaly she becomes independent of her childhood bondages that provided her the necessary psychological security. This role is taken over almost entirely by her lover and who is also drawn deeper and deeper into her life whereby he also sacrifices immensely to bail her out from the various crises.
Now this also has some desirable effects on the psychic structure of both. She loses all her Natam and hence the self-assertiveness and the man increases his Natam, becoming more and more a man ready and willing to battle in all possible ways to help her out. Thus while the souls are both Natam and Bindu, in such processes there come to prevail of PURIFICATION where the female becomes more and more feminine and the male more and more masculine with the female becomig wholly Bindu and the male wholly Natam.
Now the Black garment where even the eye holes are sealed shows that she develops a psychology whereby she is totally subservient to her lover and where she could never allow any other man , even in thinking to displace her lover. Her fidelity becomes TOTAL and absolute so that there can never be another man in her life.
Now the color Black has here TWO meanings . One is the ‘maciya mai’, the magical black that binds a soul very firmly and quite irrationally to another so that any separation can only result in death. All thinking and rationality is wiped out so that only deep and totally irrational love comes to prevail
Now this kind of psychic constitution also allows the man to marry another woman without the fear that with this second marriage, he will abandon her and seek divorce or separation and so forth. Her psychic constitution is such that she accommodates even the arrival of another fully confident that her husband who had cared and sacrificed so much for her will continue to love her just as before. Thus such a woman will not oppose the polygamous system of family life.
Now the other meaning of this Black Color is that it is Anjcana Amutu , the ambrosia of longevity and so forth so that her husband gets blessed with an inner flow of this Amutu so that he lives not only in good health but also for long fathering many children not only through his such a first wife but also through the others.
Tantrism and Islam
The traditional Tantrism allows the worship of the Black Goddess and allows for polygamous family life for some individuals if that is what BEING blesses them with. Many kings and Siddhas are reputed to have many wives and have lived for more than hundred years of age because of that. However In Islam we see the worship of such Icons ( idols?) banned very severely and where the mosques are simply vast empty space filled with geometry designs impressive in a way in themselves. However this seems to have resulted only in DISPLACED worship of the Black Goddess where they seek to TRANSFORM their womenfolk into walking black goddesses by forcing on them the attire that the Black Goddess imposes on the soul of some females she overpowers. The shape of a soul inspired by the Black Goddess in the depths is isolated from its own moorings and imposed upon the womenfolk in general as the injunctions of Al Qoran and hence Allah upon women as a whole without realizing that it is the shape of the SOUL rather than injunctions on actual attire. A women can move around in any attire but her soul remains that which is conditioned by the Black Goddess and which makes her be extremely faithful to her husband allowing even other women in his life.
Tantrism avoids this error by promoting an attitude of “ Kallaanaanum kaNavan Pullaanaanum Purushan” ( A husband remains a husband whether a stone or grass) and which constitutes the KaRpu , fidelity projected as the ideal of the womanhood but without insisting that it is a LAW of God etc.
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The Metphysics of the Golden Body
I waited sometime before writing this essay just to make sure that the dreams are experientially true and not simply some kind of fantasies. Now after about two months since I had such metaphysical dreams I am quite sure they are descriptive of body and mental processes that are true. I enjoy almost the full recovery of my intellectual powers where I can quite tirelessly write deep articles and for about 6 hours a day. In the evenings I can also read books and the dream notes that I have been writing down for decades. On top of that I am gaining weight very steadily where over the last two months alone I have recovered about 5 kilos and soon about to gain another 3 so that I begin to enjoy the kind of body I had when I was about 49 years old. There is also the dismissal of senility and along with the recovery of youthful virility.
But these dreams also led me to UNDERSTAND what it means to enjoy a golden body a theme common to the Egyptians and Tamils and where the Siddhas and Saiva saints have been talking about purifying the body and transform it from copper to gold and so forth. ( Tirumular: cempu ponaakum Sivaayanama venil)
But before I describe these special dreams that I began to enjoy only lately, let me describe another I had over the last many years where each time I get exhausted and tired I would have this dream after which I will become energetic again.
Dreams 1: The Blue Siva
I would sit in the typical Padmasana posture as the Blue Siva with both hands on the legs and with Ganges flowing in the coiled tuft and the Crescent Moon pinned to the tuft on the left hand corner. The Ganges will descend into my body and flow in and out cleaning out every dirt or sediments that are the root causes of my exhaustion. Then the Crescent Moon will enter my body and multiplying into several will also melt into something like milk and flow throughout my body regenerating whatever that has been lost through the washing and cleansing by the Sacred Waters. At this point the Trident at the back will grow diamond and rising into the sky will have damaru, the hand-drum, beating vigorously meaning that I will write deep metaphysical artilces as usual.
Now such processes came to an end when senility attacked me and brought along with it sudden and chronic diabetes that almost caused my death last August just when I turned 65 yrs of age. Since then there has been very deep and profound dreams which led me not only to defeat death itself but also recover good health
As I have already written, such a recovery was facilitated by a kind of deep sleep induced by Aticedan on which I sleep in the shape of Black Tirumaal and waking up as the black young KaNNan and so forth
Now this pattern changed two months ago for something even more deeper.
Dream 2: The Onset of Sleep of Rejuventation
At this point the Aticedan with Tirumaal began to expand and cover the whole sky, the visvaruupam. Then suddenly these figures disappeared and there came to be only very Clear Blue Sky. Surprised and bewildered I lay wondering whether I am out to suffer another set back in recovery. However this image gave way to another where my body was to be huge and lying down, there was a golden pot in my head and which began to pour out the Anjcana Amutu, the Black Ambrosia which would flow into every part of my body including the bones, setting right even the small deformations in my left foot Then the pot moved to my Muulam, the groin part and began to pour out the Amutu from that area but again flooding the whole body.
After this the whole vision disappeared and replaced with I sleeping with my usual night dress, a Lungki but with a body deeply BLACK. The bed would also be black at first and then golden and finally diamond.
The Meaning:
It was at this point that I began enjoy 5 to 6 hours of continuous and deep sleep, something that became a luxury for the past several years. The whole process was quite effortless requiring no assistance from drugs and so forth. I would lie down on the bed and after a few minutes will begin to enjoy this kind of sleep automatically. It was during this kind of sleep that I began to regain my lost weight and also my intellectual powers.
Now the next series of dreams that were recurrent began as a further development of this.
Dream 3: The Body Becoming Gold
I enjoyed for about two months sleep of this kind with the Black Ambrosia flowing into my body and making it possible for deep sleep for 5 to 6 hours day. Then it was shown that my body was pitch black not just at night time but 24 hours of the day where the Black Ambrosia would flow continuously throughout the day penetrating every part of body including the bones and rectifying all the defects so that I begin to enjoy good health. I would move around with this Black body and work quite tirelessly. Then the body began to shine forth as Pure Gold and later even diamond At this point the muscles would also become strengthened and a youthful frame generated
Then the body fully golden I begin to appear as the golden Siva Nadarajah growing tall as if reaching the sky and with legs huge and long DANCE vigorously jumping leaping turning swirling and so forth with many hand gestures that were not clear to me. Then some sakties also of the golden frame would join me and together dance and dance and move about the whole universe.
Meaning :
This was a complete surprise and am still waiting to realize it existentially. However it can be seen that it is a further development of the good health that I am already enjoying and extrapolating from this it can be seen that Golden is something which is a further improvement of the present good health I am enjoying. In a further series of dreams I am told that soon my internal organs will be rejuvenated and because of which even the diabetes would disappear with youthful virility fully restored. The golden body must be a Pure Body , a body free of the Mummalam, the Dirt that is the source of mental and physical diseases.
Concluding Remarks
There seems to a connection between my sudden interest in the study of the literature of the Golden Body and occurrence of such dreams. It appears to be that once we grasp the meaning of the Deathless Existence as outlined by the ancient Egyptians and Sacred Tamil and assimilate this TRUTH and begin to live accordingly one is also blessed with such a turn of events. I have noticed that it is the Icon Thinking that has been instrumental in my recovery from what was near death or at least serious impairment of the heart and other vital organs like kidneys and so forth. Now as I pursued the study of Sacred Tamil particularly those which describe Deathless Existence such as that of VaLLalaar, I am also blessed thus and which I feel already on the way.